Chuckie Cheese.

Baby Dani :) today james and i went on a nice little walk. ha little ya right we walked to Charlis and i was so tired at Guinn. then we went to Chuckie cheese! ha oh man has it been so long since ive gone. Aj thought we were taking the babies! haha foolish man. her Godson was there. i had alot of fun actually. i love bonding with Char and dani, shes so beautiful and smiley! and so is Char. i cant wait till james is bigger. well i can and cant. Charli might move soon. and i think about it and get so sad! shes my friend. we had babies on the same day! :) James will protect and marry dani. i love life. ha just wanted to throw that out there. Aj and i went shopping for diapers and baby shampoo and new bottles. forgot the shampoo dangit! james hasnt been wanting the bottle lately. which is pretty exhausting. that means i get no break, i try to supliment with formula. but eh enought about that. isabel and the girls are coming over tomorrow! yay. well i have to wake up my beautiful son or he wont sleep tonight, thank god for another beautiful day with my baby boy. my amazing boyfriend, and my beautiful family.

August 19, 3:47pm

I read other girls write about their birth story and i couldnt help but want to write mine, Sometimes i dont remember my belly. but i remember all the pain i was in. i was so scared for what was going to happen.i had no idea what i was preparing myself for. Well, August 19 was my scheduled C-section.in the beginnining that was the day we all wanted baby james to come. oh how i wish William was there! well i started having contractions around maybe 5 in the morning and they started to get to be3 or 4 minutes apart, i woke up my mom and told her. she sent me back to my room and told me to go back to sleep because the doctors would just have me wait there forever, so i did. (she feels bad now) an hour or so later i was having really bad contractions, now she told me to take a shower ha. so i did. we were planned to go to breakfeast that morning because i couldnt eat after 930, finally around maybe 8 i told my mom lets go! she thought breakfeast but i meant the hospital! i knew baby james was coming.But we ended up going back to the house because my dad was almost home, ha talk about dragging on the pain. Gambino timed my contractions and they were 2 minutes apart every 3 minutes! oh my gosh now i was scared! i could of sworn he was about to fall out! kinda hoped he would now. but then on our way to the hospital......mom gets lost a bit... still in pain... Finally! im there. barely ccould walk and then they checked me, everyone thought i was just having pains. but no! i was already 8cm dilated! ok now im getin my epidural and hes telling my to curl myself in a ball? i was in no situiation of curling anything but his neck! i screamed and cried with the epidural ha. a matter of an hour of being there i was fully dilated. oh my gosh! was i a big baby. i cried and cried till i had the whole room crying! ha poor aj. it was the worst pain ever! i was so thirsty for a sprite, but nope jessi and my mom drank sprite, so here im fully dilated and still so uncomfortable. they wanted me to start pushing, i couldnt even lift my legs,i pushed for a while maybe an hour or more. yepp no james. so plan A, C-section! they were rolling me in im scared and want my mom more than ever! still no Aj in sight. no doctor. im in this scary room alone! ok now they are here. they straped my arms on this counter thing. like i was some crazy women! which by then i was. and then there they go start cutting my open, eww. Aj kept telling me to keep my eyes open, his poor little face was so scared....THEN. a CRY! i was barely there but i remember that perfectly. i see james! ha swollen little face big red lips. my 8lbs 10oz baby boy?! what happend to my 6lb baby? ha. aj does all the goods and then they are about to roll me to recovery. isabel got to see him maybe almost the first one! im in recovery, i got to hold my baby boy! i loved him i knew i did when i first saw his ultrasound! ha. they gave him this one little beanie but ha it was to small. so bigger one please! everyone comes in and sees him. me looking like crap, they pushed on my stomach moments after! oh my gosh i wanted to sock someone.but thats it. thats my crazyy story! ha. and walking for the first time? horrible. ...i was in the hospital for 3 days and finally got to go home :)

oh to be young,

i dont miss being the old me. because iam a mommy now. i wouldnt take a day back, im so in love with my life. i miss friends, and having nights out with the girls. But then going out and having fun has changed for me, Aj and i went out to the batting cages last night, and we had so much fun. Actually al day yesterday was fun! we spend the whole day together! i llove seeing Aj with his baby boy. it makes everything so worth it! Last night when i got home, i still had James in his car seat i kisssed him and ThERE! was his amazing smile! i did about ten times and each time there was another one! My mom and i just sat there and laughed! also yesterday my mom and i always make these noises at him, we call them "coohs" ha we kept doing it and i swear he was doing it back! i almost cried ha i felt all proud! i love being a mommy, i can and cant wait for a girl! hA but we dont talk about that right now. i do have these little pants saved for the girl haha,i miss izzy and the girls. and where the hecks Aj. i get lonely when james sleeps sometimes, i should sleep too. but im not sleepy. Wake upp james, ha i want him to sleep at night but i miss him, i dont feel to well. i wonder if im still Anemic, i did have High Blood pressure, but i think it went down. well theres things i should be doing, im off.. :)

lifes not so hard.

My Sweet baby boy. it seems crazy that 7 weeks ago he was just this little. now my big boy is 14lbs. Hes actually looking more and more like his daddy now. just brown like me though :) hes not smiling yet, and i cant wait till he does! last night i read something and i coulddnt help but to just grab his perfect tiny body and hold him and kiss him till he practically had to push me away. i realized how lucky i truely was. hes waking up every 3 hours at night, so i get to see jessi leave and vanessa. haha. im staring at his cute chubby face in his favorite swing falling asleep. oh what a life... i do miss aj, and im going to be sad leaving this weekend to merced. james will miss his daddy, i play softball on thursday now on a co-ed team. its alot of fun i missed it! well im trying to be a vegetarian but i couldnt help my craving for a famous star today. Darn. ill try again tomorrow haha. im trying to pray extra hard lately, sometimes things just dont go my way, i get confused on how to pray for surtain things, so ill just talk to him. he knows my heart and mind, so he will help me.i want to give james everything i had but can i? can i be the mother my mom was to her boys and girls? how does she do it? im trying to play peacemaker and make sure Aj sees his son as much as possible, i want james to stop crying when he hold him just like he does when i do, i want Aj to hold him and James knows thats his daddy, i know that hes just a baby and only wants me pretty much, which yes i secretly adore :) i just want to feel what james can do when he looks at you like i feel. i guess im just a mommy now. :)

my mommy blog.

I'm Sharon Rose Aguilar. i have 3 sisters and 2 brothers. jeff.william.isabel Jessi and Melania. i have the most amazing parents i could ask for. Billy and Frankie :) Ive also have this amazing feeling and its being in love. my boyfriend aj have been together for about 3 years. and are still going strong. hes my best friend and my whole world. he makes me laugh more than anyone! we have an amazing son who is 7 weeks today! James William Cameron. he was 8lbs 10oz and now is 14lbs! hes rockin a little fohawk and couldn't look any cuter! i think he is a perfect mix of aj and i. hes got his chin and his eyes. he has my nose and my cheeks. and also my ears :) were not your normal family. but we are a wonderful family. my weeks consist of changing diapers, feeding and smiling. Every Sunday i attend Freedom church. i love God and i know i couldn't do anything without him, hes blessed me with so much.my daddy's a biker and is the President of a christian MC called the Prophets.they are all men who get high on god.my Mommy's my best friend, and helps me everyday with baby James. he loves his Nonie :) i have 4 nieces Ollie, Gianna, Juliette and Katelynn. and one nephew Ethan. i was blessed to be the godmother of my beautiful niece Juliette.I'm so happy. and couldn't ask for more :)